I was hard headed person. I was headache to my family. I was negative thinker. I was great pretender. I don’t like myself. I don’t like when someone correct me and worst of all I hate when someone advice me…I really hate advices that’s the reason why I wont share because I am avoiding whats they gonna tell me after I shared. In my heart there is a lot of insecurities and fears… I have fear in my future, in my job, in other words I lost my self confidence, my self esteem.

My intention of registering in the Landmark forum is how can I get back my confidence. On the first day I got confused I have a hard time to understand what the speaker trying to emphasized. On the second day I thought I still feel the same like the first day. I actually got bored but I was fighting for it because I don’t want that my money will put into waste through learning nothing. At the early hour of the next day when someone shared I didn’t know I got hit because I feel I am ready to share and willing to hear whatever comments I can get either negative or positive. I really feel I don’t care any negative comments against me. So, I called up to one of my best friends to whom I was unreal and untrue towards our friendships. In my mind I can handle it that easy but I was wrong, my hand was shaking while dialing. I really don’t know what I’m suppose to do…I’m turning the music on, I feel vomiting, I feel peeing. When I heard the voice of my friend my tears started to fall down non stop, my voice was shaking, I talk stuttering. After I shared I have a heart and ears to listen to her everything negative or positive.

My second breakthrough was redeeming my good relationship with my parents because I know I hurt them, I was not good daughter to them, I frustrate them…before it’s hard for me to say “I love You” or I’m Sorry” but now after Landmark saying “I love you” or “I’m sorry” is easy for me, it’s like normal words to say like “expression”.

Landmark Forum helps me redeeming my self worth, self confidence and trust…I can now creating possibility and live with it. I CAN BE ME!